Aftermath

I haven't written much lately due to exhausting amounts of grief. We found out Peanut was dead on the 26th when we went in for another ultrasound at the university. The radiologist couldn't confirm exact time of death, but we know it happened sometime between the 21st and the 26th.

I checked into the hospital for an induction on the 27th and finally gave birth on January 28th at 8 p.m. Our little boy weighed a pound and a half and he was 12 inches long. His little face and body were somewhat deteriorated after spending days in the amniotic fluid after death, but you could still see his features. He had a beautiful little face with a very distinctive nose, perfect hands and feet, and the cutest little tummy I'd ever seen. The nurse dressed him in a warm outfit with a hat and wrapped him in a blanket. We held him and looked at him for about five hours. A very kind volunteer photographer also came in and took some photos.

It's been a long week with a lot of tears. We are blessed to have the support of caring family and friends.